I know it’s already over ..

I’m sorry for abandoning this blog .

Really sorry !

Well , since the title is new year .

I should post what I did on new year eve .

Let’s see …

We went to FullHouse to enjoy our dinner .

The drink above is Lemon Jasmine Tea or something …

Don’t really remember .

Cozy environment .

The waitress who served is pretty also .

Okay , I do sound like a pervert .

Am I ?

Our food …

Yummy …

Enjoyed my chicken burger .

We ordered wine , as well .

Drinking with these two fellas .

Cheers !

Now we’re on the way to Desa Park City to celebrate new year .

Hours of waiting and separating from friends .

These was what I got .

Of course , I only pick one firework picture to post .

This was the situation when everyone is trying to get out of the place .

Jammed …

I’m not going to online for two months , starting tomorrow .

So , please do miss me .

And , wish me good luck .

I need to concentrate on my studies .

Prepare for my exam .

OMG …

So nervous !!!

Hope I can get into university ….

Bye .

See you guys after two months later .

Especially my best friend , Chloe .

To the girls I love , no matter she is a ‘past tense’ or ‘present tense’ to me .

To myself …

Have I found the thing I been searching for ?

Why am I so slow !!!???

This whole week , what have I done ??

I know I did online .

But , I did study too .

Why still slow ?

My study progress is so damn slow !

Hate that so much !!

Don’t know how to help myself …

Pathetic ~

Please pay a visit on it .

The link is on the previous post .

I have this complicated feeling inside my heart .

I don’t know what feeling is that .

Actually I do , am I ?

I hope it’s no the thing I’ve been thinking .

No way …

Right now , I just wanna focus on my studies .

That’s my priority !

I do not wish anything interrupt me during these two months .

Though I know it’s impossible …

As I will think a lot of stuffs in my mind , so basically quite useless .

Sigh …

]]> http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/10/25/complicated-feeling/feed/ 0 comedaydreamwithme http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/10/17/get-influenced/ http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/10/17/get-influenced/#comments Mon, 17 Oct 2011 09:13:04 +0000 comedaydreamwithme http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/?p=632 ]]> First , I want to apologies to my readers since I’m not posting anything for so long .

Please visit my third blog .

http://dark-angel-008.blogspot.com/

Okay …

It’s my best friend again .

She is not happy in US .

Because she facing some problems there .

Her studies , friends …

I think I know how she feels .

She not really an independent girl , frankly .

But I hope she can cope with it .

Get influenced by her today .

Not really happy today .

Hmm ….

How to help her ?

I want to give her a big hug !!!

But , I can’t fly to there .

Argh !!!

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1、自己走路會很快

2、喜歡黑夜，習慣晚睡

3、隱藏心事，喜歡一個人流淚

4、喜歡有口袋的衣服，否則不知道手該放哪裡

5、習慣抱臂

6、習慣冷戰

7、喜歡窗戶，喜歡角落、習慣蜷縮

8、喜歡寫字和閱讀

9、莫名地孤單，無法抗拒的恐懼感

10、不愛說話或很愛說話

11、心事放在心底，有一個自己的世界

12、把笑掛在臉上，幻想自己是有安全感的孩子

13、習慣了沉默，在沉默中爆發或者選擇滅亡

14、習慣了懷疑，卻總是要把人往好處想

15、不相信童話，卻一直期待會有個真正懂得自己保護自己的人出現

16、喜歡懷舊，之後感到深深的寂寞和恐懼

17、不喜歡一個人逛街可又總是一個人逛街

18、一點點事就胡思亂想，想到戲劇般的嚇人

19、喜歡聽慢歌，傷感的歌

20、會很用心地記下生命中出現的每個人

21、習慣暗戀，愛上一個人會全心全意

22、坐在電腦前，不知道做什麼，卻又不想關掉它

23、覺得世界上每一個人都不可靠，但卻還是那樣地選擇相信別人

24、偶爾會有種想消失，或是想一輩子沉睡的想法

25、不喜歡等待，卻總是等待

26、經常不經意的發呆

27、習慣活在過去，喜歡懷舊

28、總會把事情想得很長久

29、不習慣一個人莫名其妙地消失在自己的生命中

30、總是覺得沒有人能把自己放在心裡疼

31、容易滿足，更容易受傷

32、喜歡傷感，甚至頹廢

33、習慣保留自己，因為只有這樣在離開的時候，心才不會痛

34、總有一種，被忽視的感覺

35、看似花心，看似膚淺，其實是在保護自己

36、付出的遠遠超過得到的

37、很固執，不懂得放棄，但一旦放棄了就絕不會回頭

38、總是說著要離開，卻一再為自己找不離開的理由

39、在別人面前笑得很開心，一個人的時候卻很漠落

40、在陌生人面前很安靜，在朋友面前胡鬧

41、玩網游只是為了打發寂寞

42、喜歡下小雨時淋雨

43.、並不是所要的太多的回報，只要一點點就可以讓我們死心塌地，可以很少，但一定要有

44、心情不好的時候，卻喜歡聽悲歌

And we were talking about her new senior .

Same university , same course .

She sent me his link on Facebook .

I look through his profile …

He got the look …

He got the brain …

But , he doesn’t want a girlfriend because he’s not tall .

Chloe told me he is about my height .

So it’s about 5’2” or 160cm .

To me , that’s called average instead of short .

I don’t like the word ‘short’ since Form 2 or 3 …

Don’t really remember …

I know the feeling …

I understand the feeling …

The feeling why he doesn’t want a partner .

But …

If I were him , I don’t think I’ll be worried about that .

Or maybe I’ll find one but I won’t be worried .

Unfortunately , I’m not him .

We have nothing in common except the height .

He has a good look which I don’t have .

He is good at studies which I wish I am , too .

Too bad I’m not ….

I have nothing …

I feel like a trash in this world sometimes .

Perhaps all the time ?

Wasting the oxygen in the air .

I know nobody is perfect in this world .

I’m searching the perfection in imperfection .

But , failed ..

Because I’m always a failure .

My friend , BC , said to me , my blog is always emo .

Now , I know what she meant .

Because I’m not happy inside , I guess .

Am I happy ?

I have no idea …

Wearing a mask for a long time .

I quite like it when I’m alone .

That’s the time where I can think …

Just like now …

Wish to take off this mask , so that I can take a deep breath .

Of course , I’m not the only one in this world .

Most of us are wearing this mask .

No look …

No intelligence …

No identity …

I have nothing …

]]> http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/09/25/i-have-nothing/feed/ 0 comedaydreamwithme http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/09/20/have-faith/ http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/09/20/have-faith/#comments Tue, 20 Sep 2011 08:49:00 +0000 comedaydreamwithme http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/?p=617 ]]> Have faith ?

Have faith in myself ?

Believe in yourself ?

Sigh …

Got back my result .

Only Chemistry and Math 1…

Only 1 mark ?

Funny …

Don’t know how is my cGPA for all subjects …

Can’t imagine …

Oh ya !

FAILED !

I think that’s it !

But I know …

I have to work even harder to get a better result .

A result that I can enter university .

I was sad ..

I’m still sad …

Then I heard this song 相信自己 (Believe in yourself) by my favourite idol – Jackie Chan .

Though feeling better now , I’m still sad .

His voice has a power , a power to make people to believe in themselves .

The lyric is very meaningful !

Enjoy ~

*Believe in yourself *

*Never give up*

]]> http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/09/20/have-faith/feed/ 0 comedaydreamwithme http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/09/18/never-fade/ http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/2011/09/18/never-fade/#comments Sun, 18 Sep 2011 10:45:53 +0000 comedaydreamwithme http://comedaydreamwithme.wordpress.com/?p=613 ]]> Just now I saw my ex’s profile picture at Facebook .

With a guy …

I was guessing inside my heart .

And I was right about it .

I guess my feeling to her never fade .

She occupies so much spaces in my heart .

Hard to delete …

Probably can’t delete either .

My memories with her never fade …

That’s why I feel sad when I saw the picture .

When I saw that , my heart suddenly felt a slight pain .

A pain that I never feel for quite a long time .

The pain came back and see me .

Sigh …

What a fool I am …

I wanna tell my friend about this …

A schoolmate , classmate , good friend .

She knows a lot about me .

She knows me best in class ??

Hmm …

No idea …

She was offline , so I went to play game .

Now I’m feeling better .

But , I still go to look at her picture .

I can’t control myself .

Will I never go and find another one ?

I can’t tell …

She really influences me .

That’s all I know .